Fun!

Ok so after seeing that a few of my friends blogged, some keeping their blogs secret some keeping them not so secret... I'm going to try to keep this secret. Who knows how well that will work but I'll try.

So, this will try to be therapeudic to me to get my emotions and pet peeves out here.

I've been still pretty much ignored by my master. Thats not surprising, the closer we get to the 6 month mark, the more I just think he's tired of me. I'm becoming more accepting of that. I just make whatever RP oppertunities I can.

Then a friend of mine said that I was a greedy Rper and expected everyone to come over to me to RP. I started thinking on this before I snapped at them and ripped their head clean off their body. I looked at my RP style, and I'm not dependant on others for RP. I have a goal in mind for my RP. Like recently its been a dock project. A lot of this involves me RPing by myself and not socializing. And then I started thinking... is all RP about posturing about how much you know and getting into "i know more than you, or I'm more harsh than you" debates? I dont think so but maybe some people do.

So then I've been talking to some more friends. They confide in me and I do my best to listen to them. They talk about their love lives with me. I try to be a good sounding board for them. Unfortunately for me I've gotten emotionally attatched to one, and broke at least 3 of my personal rules with this person. I'm now really trying to keep my distance while remaining polite to them. Because they're in a romantic relationship with someone who I do not want to make enemies with. She's too popular online for me to mess with what is "hers" I think she's wrong for this man and she's manipulating him and I dont like it but... all I can do is be there for people.

I have another friend who's very nice, but also their character seems to LOVE posturing with other people. Another case of "I'm more gorean than thou" I like this person a lot and we have a mutual respect which is nice. But sometimes I just want to smack him with a two by four.

So thats whats been going on so far, I'm actually trying to make a promise to make this blog my little outlet

Thought I wouldnt do it huh?

Ok so in the interest of EVERYONE and their grandmother is blogging about SOMETHING. I guess I'll start blogging, better now than never huh?

Ok so whats going on in the life of lil miss thyri.

Well I've finally moved from Piedmont to the lovely Isle of Cos. YAY! As much as I loved many of the people in Piedmont, it just wasnt home for me.

So I'm in Cos now

Unfortunately however I believe I have hooked my Master on world of warcrack. I rarely see him anymore. This makes me kind of sad. I've gone though a lot with him, he seems proud of me. But I had a dance competition last week, he didnt show up for it. I was kind of upset about that. I had invited another friend of mine to come see, nope, he didnt come either. Asked that friend to read the dance and tell me what he thought, found out today, nope didnt read it. Oh well cest la vie. So back to my feelings/rantings about the master situation.

A friend of mine in WoW in their infinite wisdom decided that they should take my master (who I feel I have an OOC relationship with) into the RP room and get him laid. Well, what miffed me was... HE DID. My friend told me that my master was sniffing and humping happily away at some other girl's ass. Doesnt make me feel good IN THE LEAST. Since I've turned down every offer to RP or have sex or anything. I've been little miss celibate and he's getting to have all the fun.

So that miffs me just a bit. Now I rarely see him in SL. I dont even talk about this issue with my SL friends because they already HAVE their own drama llamas and they dont need mine on the caravan. But it hurts. Another night I spent alone in SL waiting for him and... nothing. He says he loves me but I'm beginning to think its all lip service at this point. We're hitting the dreaded 6 month mark so... its understandable why he's no longer intersted in me and wants some new RP tail. Thats fine, but LET ME GET SOME TAIL TOO!!

Another issue is.. he's married. I'm not. I will NEVER be close to this man. Ever. I'm really nuts about him but it just reeks of lonliness that after we have our online fun, he goes to bed and bangs the wife. I'm left dry humping a pillow.

Which gets me to the next point. Every man online is the world's most considerate lover. Every man wants to please their women, every man loooooooves eating pussy. Well sorry charlie I havent had that pleasure in 32 years and it aint lookin good for the future either. So it doubly hurts when he talks about his wife and how great the sex is when I'm just left humpin the pillow again. Its damn lonely.

I've thought about alting around behind his back but I'm such a flippin nice person I dont. So I've worked to help people who ask me for help with their problems. I'm glad to do it, but I become privy to two sides of the story often. I'm not saying that I dont want my friends telling me their problems, I just wish I could tell them mine. Another sense of angst and woe and other assorted emo goodies.

So thats it for my first post before I go drown myself in a pint of haagan daas.