Fade to Black

Oh yes one of my favourite topics. On the Gorums I speak quite a great deal about fading the sex scenes from Gor to black. I just dont see the need for EVERY time your character bumps pixels you need to have a 10 hour fuckfest. At the 2 hour mark really, you're not in RP anymore, you're cybering. I've apparantly gotten the scarlet letter on my chest from posting my aversion to this because I've had no less than 3 men tell me that "someone" told them that I wouldnt RP sex with them. Ummmm thats NOT what I said. Or maybe not what I meant. Gor isnt ALWAYS about the sex. But the sex is good as a part of things, just not the only part. We're seeing more "paga sluts" and "coin girls" on Gor these days. Why is that? Oh yah because I forgot that Gor was the SLwide forum to show off your cybering skills you pathetic creature. I'm sorry, some of these girls are my friend, but I know a LOT of girls who use cybersex as some kind of validation for themselves. Ummm NO. I'm NOT going to take my self esteem from how well I can get some dude off with my words. I KNOW I can get a dude off because of my words.

So on that note Vyl and I have been dancing around the sex issue for the past month or so. One month, RP every day and no sex. Ok apparantly I have to work at this and seduce him. Ok I get it, you like women to persue you actively. Ok fine. So finally after being his pot girl for a few weeks, he tells me I have to write a dance. So I do. I write a need dance. And its fucking HOT because well.. I wrote it. Its not masturbating in the grass hot its just "you WILL fuck me now because you're going to want this more than you've ever wanted anything in your life" dance. So I log on expecting to do this dance. Its 2pm and I'm like "ok I have 5-6 hours...one hour to do the dance... leaving 4 hours for sex if necessary" I figure since its thyri and Vyl's first time having sex.. it might take a while. So I log on. And wait. And then he tells me to go out shopping while he shows me around the sim his wife has been building. Ohhh...kay.... So then finally.... at 6pm.. he gets me to do the dance. By the time all the prepwork and dancing is done.... its 8pm and his wife goes to bed. We start the normal fumbling fondlings of first time e-sex... and then I get the IM "I'm so sorry but I'm falling asleep here"

DO WHAT?!?! You're falling ASLEEP? Ok I do realize its 4am where you are but couldnt you have at least budgeted your time SLIGHTLY better if you wanted to do this? Like the 4 fucking hours you spent sitting dead on the sim your wife's building and I'm staring off into space bored out of my skull? Ok... must live up to reputation I've cultivated. Fade to black.... I have to tell him its OK and its RP and I'm not upset at this. But I'm fucking PISSED. You bother to have me write up this long dance that took me over a week to write, thyri's storyline is about to change forever and she might actually become a warm slave if the words were used to break her of this potgirl funk she's in. But no, it's faded to black. He promises he'll "make it up to me" Great, now this dude feels like he owes me. Just fucking peachy. So now I have to figure out how words that werent written will translate into thyri's catharsis. I dont think I can do it. I dont think I can pretend that sex happened when NOTHING happened. Nothing to base it off of. He's still apologizing to me to this day. And I have to say "oh no dont worry about it I'm fine with fading it out"

Am I a fucking leper????? That the only people that want to fuck me want to one line me while RPing with other people, leaving me to be their dirty little secret or... oh wait, there IS no or. Now if I want any kind of e-sex to spank off to or get aroused by... I have to get on an alt and fiddle around until I find someone who can come close to matching me in RP and e-bang them. Because of my reputation saying that a slave has the RIGHT to fade a scene to black if its absolutely abhorrent... now this means that I want nothing to do with sex and that I'm just a complete fucking loser.

This just makes me wonder more and more about thyri's future on Gor. I could reactivate Quixie to see if she can get with a decent RPer and be able to be sexual. Or I could beg this guy to plan his time better so we can get our pixels doing the mambo. Not happy, definitely NOT happy.

So I read Blue's blog tonight. Seems he's STILL hungup about Torrid. And apparantly locked himself off of the Gorums and is throwing a blog Pity Party for himself because noone noticed he was gone. Well lets see here. When you're an abrasive douchebag to anyone you ever meet... ummm no noone's going to care where you've run off to. Because sim after sim isnt begging him to please oh pretty please join us, he feels slighted. Oh boo fucking hoo. You made your bed, asshole. Lay in the sewage that you've sewn. And poor Beth still is all lovey lovey about this JERK. Apparantly he's lied to people in order to enact revenge on other people. Oh LOVELY. Real nice person you are there you JERK. Oh well, back to my own pity party.

I need to get thyri laid. Hell "I" need to get laid. Sex RP is fun, and its something I rather like doing. Just not all the time. But I want it. I want it bad.